send in the clowns

last time i decided to make a blog, i posted two times and then stoped because i was told that it wasnt happy or funny enough but thats me, i'm me and if people perceive that as funny, happy or sad. i really dont care. in a way the only thing that matters is how i percieve things, even if that is in a wrong or stupid way.

i think that i sould watch neon genesis evangelion again, although that probly isnt the best idea because i will be up most if not all of tonight watching it but i guess i will just sleep all of tomorrow and not go to school, after all i already have a headach from lack of sleep. sometimes it's great having a sleeping disorder and other times its crap, hmm, now that i think about it. i really cant think of any time that it is really a benifit.

sometimes i feel like writing and other times i dont. i wonder if this is actually interesting to other people or if its just interesting to me as a way of doing something, a way of passing the time untill its late enough for me to have a chance of actually falling asleep. we will see i guess, or sould i write 'i will see', because i dont know if anyone will bother reading this or not and even if they do weather they will actually make it know to me that they have.

i'm sure that i should stop now and start doing something else.
cheers

What her crimson eyes believe in...