Im SO LuCKY!1!111!!111!!oneoneone!!1!!!!!111! OHG HACKORZZ!1!!!!oneONE111!!!!

life rocks! today is a fucking awnsome day, everything is just working out for the BEST!!! cassie you rock my metalic ten inch socks! you truely are teh best!
wOOt!!!!111!!11!1one!!1111!1OMGhaz0rs!11111!!!!

how time flys when your having fun

i find it sorta hard to believe that cassie and i have been offically going out for a month today. in some ways it seems like longer but in others im supprised at how little time has actually past.
so anyway i went to the city today with cassie, had a great time, she is the city queen we played a game which i usually win when i play it with other people but im sorta getting uset to losing against cassie... damn thumb wars. anyway the game was to see how many people we knew in the city. in less then half an hour i was on 33 people but cassie had managed to double my score with 67 people and this total continued to grow to when i left it was 95. was a good day, its good to know that you can still have fun with your girlfriend without having to go to the botanical gardens ;) ehehe

i was talking to a great friend today aswell, after cassie left i happened to bumb into marina. was good to see her and have a chat with her before she meet up with her bf of 7 months, i was supprised to hear that it had been that long. had a good chat about each of our lives, i needed it. cheers marina.

i think im not able to sleep anymore atm, im just thinking about things too much. the things i should be thinking about im not and then things i shouldnt or dont want to i do, but when has that even not been the case. oh well.
i feel like im a different person then at the start of this year. not only mentally but physically, today i was happy to look in the mirror and see a somewhat fatish michael, looked good. but once again when i see how much i wieght.. im always the same. oh well. at least im not lossing wieght. i think im a much healthier michael arm then at almost any other time of my life, maybe not when i was little. oh well. doesnt matter.
just then i was thinking about how huge and amazing the human mind is.. think about it. think of all the stuff that we can rememeber and know how to do.
this really is a crazy post.
i was watching some docos yesterday, made me think. our world is so fucked over. the american government is completely dependent on drug money, the CIA is involved in trafficing drugs... wtf. and whats even more screwed is that most people would NOT get ride of the drug problem in america because they will lose money from it, lose there bonds. oh well. thats socity for you. ive always thought that the 9/11 attacks where screwed up, just something wasnt right but i mean the truth behind it is even more fucked up. people where killed, sacrificed if you will, so that fat cats could make more money. Osama bin larden and goerge bush have made huge profits off of the new 'war' against terror. nobody cares about the truth anymore. the american government keeps so much shit from everyone. fucking hell. im really worried about the future of my children.
i dont know why im writing so much. i guess i feel like by writing that ive done more then most people in helping the world be less screwed. even if i did little if anything.

i dont understand some humans sometimes, they think they can get what they want by screwing with others, shifting the blame off them to others. thinking they can manipulate me to get THEIR desired result giving no thought or care into what 'I' actually want. well.. do you know what.. fuck you... there that feels better. fuck you for thinking that i would be dumb enough to fall for you stupid web of lies and games. fuck you for trying to fuck over one of the best if not best thing that has ever happened to me. fuck you for wanting me too. FUCK YOU FOR MAKING ME FEEL LIKE THIS, THIS ANGRY, WHEN I SHOULD BE HAPPY!

this really has been a ride of emotions for me, writing this. oh well.
tomorrow i think im going to watch that anzac day thing that was on tv, i really should be homework. im so behind in year 12, i need to realise that this year matters. i wish i knew what i was going to do next year.

life is so screwy, im so thankful for what i have right now. i have amazing friends which care about me and want me to be happy and i also have my cassie, my amazing gf. shes so good for me. i have a great family, my brother and sisters all care for me and i for them. my parents are getting things back on track, ive never seen them like this. for the first time in my life its not the outside world that doesnt seem to be screwing me over, except one part, but its me. im fucking myself over in year 12 and ultimatly my working life. im SO worried that something will brake the amazingly good thing i have going with cassie. so so so worried. i dont really have any reason to be worried. im just paranoid. i care for her SO much. these words dont do justice to how i feel about her. NEVER before have i felt this so crazy about someone. im so scared that i will lose her. argh. i remember the pain that i have felt over other people and i know that it will be nothing, NOTHING compared to what i will feel and on the other hand. if something does end up happening. oh my, and there is someone else planed for me, i just dont see how they could be better for me then her. argh.. what if there is someone else better out there for cassie. someone that makes her happier. im being very open atm.. what am i doing. *shakes head* oh well.

i think my mother is worried about me again too and she is also worried that we are drifting apart, shes lossing touch with her little baby. shes sent me 4 emails in the past 2 days. i hope shes not getting too lonely up there. her house is almost buildt. so she will use that as a reason for us to all come up. i think i will let her use it to. havent been up there for awhile.

i need to get my P's. im such a lazy bumb when it comes to some things. i really should practise the guitar too. im starting to annoy myself with how i feel about it too. im turning into one of those people that complains but doesnt do anything about it. i truely do suck sometimes.. and not in the good way either.

here i am complaining about shit when people have died to keep me free. they gave there lives for us... its a huge thing. i feel sorta guilty about that, what about those people that would of gone on to lead a fucking awnsome life. happy, helping society. and i cant even be bothered doing year 12. argh... im over thinking this too. taking it too far.

why am i still up at this time. i should be asleep... ive spent an hour thinking and writing this.... i complain alot when i want too.

i want to be the best that i can be
but not for me, for everyone around me.
will it happen...?

term over yet?

why cant the term hurry up and end but no, i have to have all this work to do not only that i have to come back for the first two days of holidays to do maths. *sigh* o well. it has to be done, how else are we going to make up the 50 pages or so that we are behind in.
happy birthday to cassie for yesterday, im glad you liked all your presents.

Politics is war without bloodshed, while war is politics with bloodshed.

the wedding had good music

a really great day had, what more can i say

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CRAzY bout cassie

cassie is so so so cool and not only because of how cool she usually is.. but ive got an extra reason now, go and look up csongei on urbandictionary.com SHE IS SO NICE
argh...
so good

drunken-ness fun

im too sexy for my shirt, to sexy for my shirt.. o yeha it hurts ; P

i need my sleep, leave me alone face.

so good.. so many drinks... all at the same time... the only thing that could of made it better is if my gal was there too
the last two weeks where very interesting. good time had.
id also like to tell everyone to keep in there minds a guy called john, hes having a hard time atm and needs support... even if it is from across the world and from complete strangers.
http://txjohnr.blogspot.com/
cheers